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I find myself in.......

Letting my emotions loose.


I feel the pressure building up in me
The flow of emotion bundled up
My mind a dam itself, tries to hold it still
While it threatens to crack open
When I find myself at the brink of all control

My soul and mind at war
Perplexed in a situation
As black and white as can be

My heart decides to let it loose
And watch the tears stream down
And carry the anxiety and troubles along with it

While I learn to accept
That it is okay to let loose of yourself
To let the volcano erupt someday
For no being can remain one
Without any emotion
For one without any is no more than
A lifeless form of skin and bones.

Denying the very lifelines that make us human
Could leave a lasting imprint on the human soul
Very much like the feathery clouds high up above
The burden of little water drops
Might seem like a trivial matter
Not when they weigh heavily on the clouds

Those tiny drops of water
Cannot remain there for eternity
For it has to someday
Or the other.....

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